CRPS Awareness photo challenge: time

Photo challenge: The biggest roadblock in my life other than pain.

Time.

Suzy's photo challenge, 2015, day 16

 

 

I have limited activity per day re pain management.

I have limited activity, functionality, independence per day re the worst of the Dysautonomia symptoms.

I have limited ability to think, process and get brain stuff done because when I use my brain I can only do so for a while. Then it falls over and stops functioning and I’m blooming useless until it recoups. How long that takes depends on multiple variables.

With pain management and brain time it is the unexpected opposite… use it and I lose it. Every time. Though there’s no guarantee that I’ll have any type of functionality at any given time either .

So time when I’m able to think and do is so precious because of its rarity and fleetingness.

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Totally Tubular (Dumbarse) Tuesday!

I just found this draft from last winter and decided to finish it off and share it.
As you’ll see… you’re not alone with the Silly Brain stuff, but more importantly this post is about change being the only certainty with these conditions and crucially.. change can go either way.

So Keep On Keeping On is definitely the way to go. Sometimes we can be surprised by some good changes. 😀

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Last winter:

I started the day like a boss dumbarse.

It seemed okay at first: Magic Dude got up for work at Stupid o’Clock and I actually went back to sleep. Sleep! Awesome!

When I awoke I was lying there thinking I should get up when there was a knock at the door. I made it downstairs and stared bleary-eyed and incomprehensibly at the woman on the doorstep. She’d come to read the electric meter. Fair enough. I then went to look at the time… Ohgoodgrief it’s 10am – 30 minutes to get ready and leave for Tai Chi, eeeeek!

Yes, it’s Totally Tubular Tuesday! Which means that I have two physio’s today, but that they’re cool physio’s that I’m super pleased to get to do – Tai Chi and adaptive Kung Fu.

So I managed to throw clothes on and and shove my contact lenses in. Ruuuuush!

Then I Iooked at the time again.

It was 9am.

Dumbarse!

So I carried on getting ready at a more leisurely pace. Today is the only dry day for a while so I had to hang some washing out. This is the worst day I could possibly have to do it on as I have both physio’s taken up with my classes, so it means that hanging washing is extra activity which is baaad news for the pain levels. And as it’s winter here the pain levels are already dreadful as the cold takes hold.

But I did it. Hurrah! Washing hung outside. Breakfast eaten. Multiple tablets and supplements taken. Fluids imbibed. I even wrote christmas cards for my Tai Chi and Kung Fu classmates.

I got to Tai Chi on time. Or so I thought. I walked in and everyone had started already. I hate being late for anything. I can’t do the Chi Gung any more as this med’ doesn’t stabilise my ANS as well so I get too faint to Tai Chi if I do the Chi Gung. So I plonked myself down and did some stretches through the standing still bit, then I joined in for some Chi Gung arm movements whilst sitting down to reduce faintyness.

Then we all performed the Yang style 24 form together with the official music. I was trying to include the corrections I’ve been learning but my brain is always off after a bit of Chi Gung so it’s guaranteed to be sub-standard the first time!

Then I hurriedly swigged some weak tea from my flask and poured it down my tee-shirt. In front of my teacher. Awesome.

The rest of the lesson was dedicated to brushing up the Sun style 73 performance. Apparently I have claw hands today. *sigh* Blummin’ dystonia! My teacher was showing me how to smooth out one particular move. The correction is reeeaaally straight forward. I know it is. And yet I found that without the move beforehand I could not work out how to do even the basics of the move we were working on. That’s not too unusual for me, but then I found myself watching her show me the move several times in a row and I realised that I did not recognise the move at aaaall. I had no knowledge of what she was doing. I knew I did really, somewhere in my brain, but it’s the first time I’ve not been able to access something like that even when it’s happening in front of me. It was not an enjoyable CRPS Brain moment. 😦

you're always on way way to someplace more

But you know what? This is just part of that thing called Shit That Happens. So all I can do is acknowledge the brain anomaly and move on. No need to dwell on these things as it will make me sad. Move on. I’ll know the move another day.

So I practiced what I could so that I got some activity for my body during my allocated physio’/Do-Stuff time.

Then I got my christmas cards out and found that I’d brought some of the Tai Chi cards and some of the Kung Fu cards to the Tai Chi class. Ugh! Stoopid brain. It probably looked like I’d forgotten to write cards for some people. *sigh* Hopefully they know me better than that, though. 🙂

Then… gosh I’m so classy…I choked on my lemon barley water and coughed a lot, bringing my ‘happy christmas’ convos to an abrupt end. Waving goodbye to people I got outside and proceeded to do the whole whooping cough thing whilst bringing up scrummy mucus into my mouth. Yum.

This is all fairly typical for a Tuesday, I really struggle with the two classes in one day, but they are both important to me and I do them during my allocated physio’ time so they are not extra. (And usually there wouldn’t be washing to hang up).

So, off home for 6 hours of attempted recuperation with fluids, hot water bottle, cushions to prop me up, blanket etc, then on go the compression stockings again and back to the martial arts gym. Double checking the christmas cards before I left.

When I arrived home from Tai Chi I found that the washing had been rained on and was now sopping wet again. All in-keeping with the theme of the day I guess!

And yes I still went to my adaptive kung fu lesson. I made it through despite nearly passing out whilst standing still and holding a target up for someone else to practice kicks past. Standing still is blood-pooling-tastic eh?!

It may look like I'm doing nothing but

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Today:

Now that my teacher is back from the Tai Chi World Cup in Taiwan and has finished winning gold and silver medals for a while she has got stuck into running a new class which started today. And yes, I was there for the first of the new class which is all about strength and conditioning.

As any pain patients know – pacing is the key to a lower pain baseline, and as any hypermobile patients know – pacing is jolly useful but strengthening muscles to help reduce the bendiness is pretty awesomely handy.

So that’s what I’m working on: strength and conditioning the parts of my body that I a) need to improve for Tai Chi tournament purposes, b) which will reduce various hypermobility issues and c) which is all done within my daily paced physio’ time so that I can do so without exacerbating my pain baseline.

spoons

I wrote a while ago about how the med’ I’m taking to help stabilise my Autonomic Nervous System (ANS) issues somehow remained pretty crap until this Spring despite starting it in the Autumn before. I don’t know why that is but I certainly wasn’t complaining when I could not only join in with the Qi Gung in class again but I could even shut my eyes without immediately keeling over. Wow! What an improvement! The dystonia reduced in severity too. It’s always worth talking to your doc’ about any tweaks or alternatives because tiny changes in med’s can result in substantial improvements in our uber-sensitive bodies.

This year I’ve worked at the Tai Chi and covered some of the lessons as substitute teacher that I would usually attend as a student as part of my physio’ anyway. (A physio’ spent teaching gives me a different insight into my Tai Chi and is a whole other learning curve. And definitely a challenge)! I’ve also worked at the adaptive Kung Fu, trying to adapt as little as possible as it’s within my daily physio’ remit but there’s always odd little aspects that I need to be careful about (e.g. when my heart goes dysrhythmic, when I get faint and working round issues such as my degenerative hip joints).

But as you can see from my draft above that I wrote last Winter… I am doing better than I was last year in some rather important aspects.

set backs and come backs

Admittedly my proprioception still goes awol and my teacher has seen me pour drink down my top many times. Even as recently as Thursday in fact! Ah well. I still have all the same issues with my health, and many are worse because that’s just the way it is, but that doesn’t mean that I can’t make improvements in important ways. And it certainly shows that my determination to keep at the physio’ pacing keeps paying off endlessly.

So finding my draft from last Winter and re-reading it was a pretty good experience for me. If you journal you’re probably telling me through your computer screen that I should try journalling more often eh?! 🙂

My determined physio-ing and my med’s tweak have helped me to build up to working on stabilising the most hypermobile areas in my body. It would be awesome to experience less subluxation of my shoulders and sacrum, and if I can do the strength and conditioning exercises as a tougher physio’ each week then my ANS should be more relaxed about the lesser activity the rest of the week. Or at least that’s what I’m hoping based on my past experience.

I’ll keep on keeping on anyway. Winter is not quite setting in here yet, the changes in weather are wreaking havoc with us Painies, and when Winter finally sets in our pain levels will rocket even more. So I need to be on top of my physio’ schedule to make it through to Spring with as few setbacks as possible. I don’t know where I’m headed so it’s all about doing the best I can for my health. I guess I’ll just follow whatever path turns up under my feet. And if I go backwards that’s all par for the course, it’s just setting me up for another comeback, right?

Feeling determined!

look at how far you've come, rather than how far there is to go

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Tai Chi and adaptive Kung Fu catch-up

During the time that I was away from the blog creating the FAQ I still kept up with my physio’ sessions of course. I have to as the pain still needs managing no matter what else is happening. In fact that has to come first for me to be able to do anything else anyway. So I kept up with the Tai Chi and was training for this year’s nationals in Oxford and London.

I also kept up with the adaptive Kung Fu taught by the same fabulously supportive teacher.

So I’ve had a few progressions to celebrate since I last posted about these physio’ focuses.

I sourced my very own purple, (yes I’m sticking with the purple!) Tai Chi ‘silks’ and when they arrived I was so chuffed to have my own set that I wanted to take a piccy of them to show you. On the very same day though I was awarded my green sash in adaptive Kung Fu so I was pretty overwhelmingly happy and took a photo’ of the two together…

TC silks & KF green sash

Each time the Tai Chi tournaments come around there’s something new about our performances. There is always additional detail and improvements which we’ve spent the last year working on, but this was also my first year competing at intermediate level (for those who’ve been learning Tai Chi for 2-5 years). I was bowled over to win a gold for my performance at each tournament again this year, plus there was the added surprise of being awarded joint bronze at London for overall intermediate as well. So yep, I’m pretty amazed at the outcomes, especially the London one because a) I had performed the 24 form at Oxford and only started learning the 42 form 8 weeks before London, and b) I had to wait all day before it was time for me to perform… by which time I was a mess! My brain was going, my Dysautonomia was playing up, I couldn’t think straight and basically felt downright dreadful. So I decided that if I managed to get through it without making any massive errors or falling over that I’d be happy. After all, I don’t so much compete with my Tai Chi peers as with my health. If I can kick the metaphorical arses of CRPS & Dysautonomia then I’m a happy bunny! So yeah, winning in that state was one heck of a shock! Maybe I’m alright at this Tai Chi thing! 😉

I know that it would be appropriate to have a piccy of me after performing at London as I collapsed in a sweaty heap the moment it was safe to do so, drank a bottle of water in one long gulping session, shovelled down some salty peanuts and then just sat there cross-legged with my head in my hands. Funnily enough poor Magic Dude was more concerned about me than he was about documenting the state I was in, we’ll make sure he gets his priorities right next time! 😉 So here’s an alternative but not-so-interesting piccy instead, x

TC medals 2014

Of course it’s been so long now that I’ve since graded again in adaptive Kung Fu. I am now the proud, and rather gobsmacked, owner of a blue sash! 🙂

KF blue sash

None of these achievements were things I aimed to attain. It’s all been a case of trying things because I want to, let’s face it… doing a physio’ that we actually enjoy or which makes us feel good about what we’ve achieved is well worth the effort just for that, let alone all the physical good that we do it for. And yes, don’t get me started on the extended Aftermath Pain from attending the tournaments! But it’s worth it. For kicking the arse of my health conditions… it’s so worth it!

I do push myself, but I do it within the knowledge of how to work pain management activity balanced with rest and recovery. Plus I pay attention to the feedback from my body and work from the adaptive point of view to keep me from plunging into any unnecessary mega-flares. That is where the ‘adaptive’ aspect is really important. There’s no sense in comparing myself with healthy classmates, I do what I can for my body and for my inner self.

Of course mega-flares are part and parcel of competing twice a year and whenever I dare to grade, but the psychological boost I gain from feeling like I’ve just stuck my fingers up and my tongue out at my health issues helps to get me through the flare,  which is finite, whereas the achievement will be with me for life.

Ah yes, I love Tai Chi!
I’ll be practicing it to whatever capacity I can, including (especially) when I’m crinkly and weathered! (I was gonna say “until I’m crinkly and ricketty” but I’m already sooo ricketty it didn’t really work, heh!)

I am amazed and so pleased that I have the chance to adapt the Kung Fu around my issues, and if I never get further than the blue sash I’ll still be thrilled. 🙂

P.S. My teacher is awesomeness! Thank-you teach’!

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To my wonderful readers out there: Do something you love, it doesn’t have to be much and it doesn’t have to be difficult, but never cap your potential. What we can achieve over time can be surprising, so allow yourself room to be pleasantly surprised.

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Festive physio’ stole all my spoons!

I’ve spent some of my physio’ activity time decorating tree #1….

Xmas tree 1, 2013

Aaand tree #2 aka Treebeard (who has surprisingly made friends with Emo Spiderman)….

Xmas tree 2 (Treebeard), 2013

Of course, after using up available activity time other things tend to pile up a bit….

Tea bag pile

Tee hee

Merry December peeps, may you be cosy and smiley 🙂

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(Spoon ref’)

Something I didn’t think I could do…

For the photo challenge today…

I wasn’t entirely sure if I’d make it through my studies without the health getting impossible, but if I didn’t think that there was a chance of success then I wouldn’t have embarked upon that final module. So I have to think of something that I genuinely thought that I couldn’t do, which is nigh on impossible for me because I am one of those people who doesn’t believe in capping potential… who knows what we can achieve in the future? The last thing I’m gonna do is assume that I can never do things because then I’ll never try, and that’ll make it true whether it could have happened or not. So there is nothing that I think I can never do. Instead I work within my current health restrictions doing what I can and I enjoy the ride.

I enjoy the ride because living in the present is joyous. Okay yes, so there’s pain and crawling along the floor with my head spinning and such like, but there are also cups of tea, hot water bottles, sunsets that I can see through the window and much more. Why worry about my future? That’s not going to help me right now. Don’t get me wrong do I plan for my future, I just don’t allow myself to worry about it. I could worry about my health deteriorating, but even if I knew for sure worrying would only make the present feel worse. The thing with CRPS is that it is changeable. Change is built into the very fabric of how the condition works. And change can go either way: so some of my symptoms might improve. My pain management is in a whole different world to where it was years ago. My pain and my condition continues, but the way the pain and I dance around one another is more patterned than it used to be, we have a kind of truce. Neither of us is backing down, but there’s an ‘agreement’ of sorts! It allows me to plan for some activities and events that I could not have done in the past. I will pay for it in pain levels, but I plan for that too.

So who knows what we can accomplish in the future? And if that’s the case, why not start now? Losing old patterns of living, active abilities, friends who can’t handle the changes… well, after getting over the initial crapola that creates we then start to think things like… “What is really important to me?”, “What can I do for me that gives my life smiles and personal value?”, “What can I try that might help distract myself from the pain a little bit?”. And that’s when we discover a new feel to life and start creating our own new pattern. Some of us rediscover lost skills or hobbies and some of us discover new ones.

So when asked for a picture of something I did not think I could do, I just don’t think that way. For me it’s about something I did that I never knew I would do, with the emphasis on the not knowing it was in my future rather than not believing it was.

When we start creating our own new way of living within our current (but potentially changeable) conditions of living, it is a process of exploration and discovery. When I started new things (like this blog) I always said that I don’t know where it will take me but it will be interesting following the path and finding out. And the blog has taken me down paths I didn’t know were in my future. (You can see the blog for yourself though, so I guess a piccy of that would be a let down)!

When I was at a physical low a couple of years ago, I had to stop doing my twice weekly physio’ sessions at the gym because the Dysautonomia had become a real problem with trying not to pass out and/or throw up whenever I tried to exercise, and I felt really down about it. I handled it well for the first few months even though I knew I’d have a lot of ground to regain, but after two years it was a real concern that I could not get the physio’ that my legs required to keep to the delicate balance of activity and rest that affects pain levels. To my regular readers – please excuse me for mentioning my beloved Tai Chi again (;-) !) but for those who don’t know… Tai Chi is what I started doing in a slow-mo attempt to get my body doing some different activity twice a week. What I hoped was that it would help me get back to the gym and what I found was that I really enjoyed learning it so I knew that when I got back to the gym I was not going to give up the Tai Chi. That was it, though, the extent of my expectations! I just wanted to learn more Tai Chi and improve over the years. I knew that it would be a very handy health tool for my crinkly years if I could keep it up for the rest of my life, so that was the plan.

Instead, as regular readers will know, it took me down a whooooole different path!

Tai Chi Chinese New Year 2013

I still cannot get back to the gym, but the Tai Chi (thanks to my awesome teacher who saw and nurtured my potential, encouraging me every step of the way) led me to perform at a Chinese new year celebration wearing Professor Li‘s purple silks (passed down from him to student, to student’s student, then loaned to me 🙂 ). ‘Thanks’ to my CRPS journey I’m now pretty good at living in the moment which helps to keep the stress levels down (which helps calm the Dys’ symptoms). From my teacher’s point of view I demonstrated that I performed well under pressure, whereas from my point of view there was no real pressure from an audience coz the bigger problem was keeping my symptoms under some semblance of control! So really I demonstrated that I know how best to work around my condition to get a few minutes of apparently able-bodied performance! Because of this, my teacher took me to my first national tournament (ladies beginners class) where I shocked myself completely by winning gold. Then she took me to a different national tournament a couple of months later (this time a bigger classification group as all men and women were competing against each other) and I amazed myself by winning another gold. It opened my eyes to potential that I didn’t know I had. It’s been the most unbelievable year in the most literal sense because I still have trouble believing that all this really just happened to me!

That’s the thing about potential, it lurks sneakily just off to one side and it has no visible limits, It’s the exciting unknown, and the key is to travel the path enjoying each new achievement along the way because wherever those limits may be.. a) limits can be tested and we can improve, and b) aaaall achievements along the way are to be celebrated.

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Inspiration

The online Facebook community of CRPSers has recently been asked to write their own inspirational stories for possible inclusion in an “Inspirational CRPS Story Book”. I chose to write about the Tai Chi rather than the academia simply because physio’ is a need that we all have as a crucial part of our pain management, and the possibility that it could be less of a chore and more of a joy is pretty darn cool! 🙂

I have been advised by the lovely lady putting the book together that it’s fine for me to post this on my blog for my readers to see. So this is what I wrote….

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Inspiration is one of those words that won’t be pinned down. You can’t point at it and say “see, look… that is an inspiration” in the same way that you could point out a chair or the colour lilac. Okay, well you could point at something that you find inspiring and say that, but the person you’re talking to may disagree, or they may feel inspired in a totally different way.

And it’s not only a personal thing, it’s also an out-of-the-blue thing. When we feel inspired by something it is usually something that happens in a moment, or it’s crept up on us somehow and we become aware of it in that moment. It is a response that involves our emotion through personal interpretation. It often links in to our own joys and pleasures in life, our dreams, our morals, our hopes. Maybe we saw a picture that we found inspiring… perhaps it made us feel good about the world and want to do more good ourselves, or it inspired us to paint, or move home, or phone a friend that it reminded us of. Inspiration can come from anywhere and at any time because it comes from within. It is often sparked by something external, something we’ve seen or heard perhaps, but it can also be sparked from within – our own thought process can lead us to inspiration. Inspiration is so wrapped up in who we are and how we interpret what we see, hear and feel.

If someone says “you should try this…”, it’s not inspiring on its own. But if it sparks your interest, gets you intrigued, makes you feel inspired to do it, then that’s a different thing altogether from just trying it because someone said that you should.

If we are inspired to do something, if we are interested, motivated and involved in what we’re doing, then we are also more likely to see it through. Mind you, I say that as someone who keeps trying to find the time to get back into my artwork but failing to see it through. It’s not that I’m not inspired so much as that I don’t set aside time to allow myself the enjoyment of it because it takes up valuable activity time which I usually need to complete mundane tasks like cooking or washing dishes! I know what I want to paint, I just keep ending up crossing other things off my ‘to-do’ list instead. Being inspired is one thing, but making time to enjoy that inspiration is a decision that is easy to push away. I know from personal experience!

Just about two years ago as I write this I was inspired to continue with something new. Starting it was more owing to necessity, but feeling inspired to continue, now that’s the magical bit!

My CRPS story is a long one so I will not recount it in any length. It’s been nearly 14 years since injury and onset as I write this. It took 6 years and many medical roundabouts to get a diagnosis, and with no medical support or knowledge of the condition whatsoever it took me about 10 years from injury before I began to find out that it is much much more than ‘just’ the second most painful condition known to medical science (after terminal cancer of course <3). So suffice to say it includes screaming pain, wishes of no longer existing, loss of friends through their inability to cope with my new reality, having to give up work, using crutches, a wheelchair, lack of food and nutrition through inability to shop/cook/eat, waving goodbye to my future career that I was working so hard towards, severe muscular atrophy, and even loss of family once the autonomic and neurological changes hit their fastest downward slide yet.

I could bore you with details. But if you’re a fellow patient then you know the score already, and if you’re not then I think this book will contain enough detail already. Living with a progressive health condition strips away your former life and even many of the people that were in that life. It leaves you with nothing but yourself, and it is easy to wonder where even that went until we begin to separate who we are from what we used to do and who we used to know. I was me when I was able-bodied and pretty healthy, and I am still me now that I am chronically ill and disabled, it’s just the way that I express my ‘me’ which has changed. ❤

So, I started a class more owing to need as I had been unable to continue with any gym physio’ sessions for two years since my additional autonomic dysfunction issues had set in (a common co-morbidity in CRPS patients). The lack of gym physio’ was taking its toll on my body and the extent of symptoms and two years of backsliding whilst continuing to deteriorate made it clear that I wasn’t going to get back to the gym anytime soon. My boyfriend came home one day with some information about a Tai Chi class that had recently started up at the gym that I was still a member of.

It made sense to try it. I’d always wanted to learn a martial art and Tai Chi is a slow-mo version! And from a physio’ perspective it ticked a lot of boxes – gentle, slow but weight-bearing and it is good for balance, core stability, leg strength, confidence of movement, stride length etc. All good reasons to give it a whirl. So I went along and tried it. And I really enjoyed it. The teacher was also trained in fitness as well as having seriously good qualifications, experience and multiple trophies from around the world. I fell on my feet there and no mistake!

I loved the first lesson and I felt inspired to continue. The more lessons I attended the more inspired I felt. I found that Tai Chi is harder to start off with because that’s when we’re learning the basics, and as I took on board more of the principles of how the movements worked the easier and more enjoyable it got.

It no longer felt like it was the ‘other’ option to my usual gym physio’, although initially I was hoping that I would still get back to the gym eventually. Not that I would have given up the Tai Chi, mind you. It even turned out that I’m not half bad at it.

So here I am just over two years later and I now have two national gold medals at beginners level for my Yang style Tai Chi! I am currently learning Sun style and sword Tai Chi as well. I adore my new physio’s and intend to keep at it into my old age as the longer I can remain active the longer I can better manage my pain levels into later life. I would love to still be able to do a slow mo’ crescent kick in my old age! 😉

The Tai Chi classes were cut at the gym so, seeing as the only class I attended there anyway was Tai Chi, I ended my membership there and moved over to my teacher’s martial arts club. Next year I’ll be at intermediate level and I fully intend to compete again at the nationals because a) I enjoy it so much, b) it’s wonderful to achieve something when so much of the time I am so limited and c) I’m proud to be performing Tai Chi amongst able-bodied competitors despite being chronically ill and only having small amounts of physio’ time in which to do it.

Becoming ill and becoming disabled takes so much away from us, but I’ve found that what it has really done is allow me to explore another skill set that I never knew I could have. We can achieve so much more than we realise. The key is trying something out and seeing if it inspires us. Sometimes it can open up a part of what makes us who we are that maybe we thought we had lost – there it is after all, it was still there all along,… I am still me in this new form.

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Tai Chi National medals, 2013

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If you’d like to write your own inspirational story, or perhaps a friend or family member would like to do so,… yes, I did say that… whether you are a CRPS patient or a friend or family member of a CRPS patient then feel free…. all stories are welcomed and 50 of them will be published in the book (you can choose whether to be named or anonymous). Here’s the Facebook page for the endeavour… https://www.facebook.com/InspirationalStoriesForCrpsRsd?fref=ts and email your story to RSDCRPSInspirationalStories@yahoo.com

No story is not worth telling. And writing this doesn’t have to be a daunting task because it is simply a chance to write about something which has helped you through. Maybe something has inspired you to keep at a hobby, or keep up with the physio’, or perhaps to study, or start something new, or…. Maybe you are a friend or family member who wants to write about how what inspires the CRPS patient that you know, or how you are inspired by them / their attitude / their determination / …, or how you think that they inspire others… and so on. Whatever it is, there is someone out there who will be inspired by your experience, and that’s what it’s all about, x

The key theme is ‘inspiration’.

Flex your typing fingers people, or get your favourite pen out, and have a little jot-stuff-down moment. Don’t be afraid to write, it’s a wonderful experience, and there will be an editor on hand so if you’re nervous of the brain fog kicking in or the kids/pets/postie interrupting your flow, don’t worry – it’s the story that’s the important bit, not how you write it, x          😀

I’d love to hear your comments below. What do you think of this post, of the opportunity to write and share for the book, of the book idea itself… anything, I’d love to hear your thoughts. Big loves from me, x

Photo Challenge for CRPS Awareness, Day 17

A Day In My Life Photo Challenge for 30 Days Of RSD/CRPS Awareness, June 2013

Day 17 – A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

Who’d have thought that finding an enjoyable physio’ activity would lead to two national gold medals in Tai Chi at beginners level, eh?! Blimey!

Tai Chi National medals, 2013

It’s made me reassess possibilities with this condition. Yes, I’m useless for, ooohhh, about 87.5% of the time (randomly specific, eh?! 😉 ) but if that were the case, then during that magical 12.5% of physio’ time I can still apply myself and work on improving my body and doing what I can despite my chronic health issues. *And* it’s something that I *love*.

It doesn’t get much better than that! 😀

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